Sunday, December 25, 2011

Christmas 2011

Last night, while waiting for the clock to strike twelve, I decided to pray and thank God for all the blessings that He has given me. Looking back and looking at what is, I am overwhelmed by how much the Lord has blessed me. I know I share this over and over again but what can I say, I tend to forget how blessed I am (true story. :p)

As one of my best friends have said, people are the best blessings we have. I am thankful for the gift of people in my life... the ones that break my heart and the ones that put them together again. Many times, they are the same people but it is only when I have come past through the hurtful experiences that I realize that God really has a reason for allowing these things to happen. Whenever I encounter something painful or something that brings me too much joy (which I, most of the time feel, won't last forever), I utter this short prayer:

Lord, you have allowed this to happen. It has gone through your filter and so I am allowing myself to experience this in its fullness knowing that your plan is greater than mine and that your plan is born out of love for me.

Although the words are not exactly the same every time, I speak this message to myself and I feel a sense of peace. It is a kind of peace that enables me to live with courage... to live seizing the day for all that it is. So, this Christmas, I wish every person could place himself/herself in front of the manger and marvel at the Love that has been manifested in a form of a baby. In that moment, may we all find peace... the kind that pushes us onward with faith and hope.

I do not know where I am headed. I have a plan (as I always do) but these past few years, I have given up complete control over the "route" to use in order to get to the destination. I just pray that as I go through these ups and downs and these moments of standstill, I may grow to become more and more like Jesus. May every twist and turn lead me to You, Lord. Bisan asa agi, bisan unsa kadugay basta kuyog Nimo, para Nimo, padung Nimo ug ikalipay Nimo, adto lang ko. Grant me the grace to accomplish this. =)

Merry Christmas, everyone! =)